RUSH RUSH

Another tiring day of working! Had a shift of 5.5 hours, but today didn't seem to be as busy as last Wednesday, I wonder why? Hmmm... One of the staffs taught me on how to deal with the front counter, how to take orders and how to operate the cash register! I was so excited but nervous when I was facing the customers to take the orders, so worried that I was going to get any mistakes! However, everything went smoothly... It's time for me to memorize the menu as soon as possible so that I won't be that panic anymore! Woohoo~!

Had a cup of jasmine green tea on my way to the bus stop, passed by a crowd which caught my attention! I stopped and checked out what was happening among the crowd... There was a street performer in the crowd performing his tricks and everyone was surrounding him for his show with a burst of applause after each of his tricks! It was awesome and fun... Stopped for about 5 minutes and managed to get some pictures from far as I was actually should be rushing home for preparation of my evening class! XD

SHOP FOR EASTER

Awoken by a loud banging sound of the door this morning, wondered what was happening? Who the hell was banging the door so hard? After that, I can no longer fall asleep, so I had to wake up. Ate some of the leftover food, can't manage to finish the whole thing, I put it back to the fridge. Walked into the shower and ready up for another shopping session! Main purpose was to buy my slippers!

Reached the city and met up with my friend around 12.45pm, went to Hanaichi for lunch, waited about 15 minutes on the queue! Then, we went straight to City Beach to grab my slippers! However, some of the items were on season sale! We were so excited and busy seeking for cheap items! Was unable to find my slippers from the adult section, so I went to the teenager section! Finally, I got a pair of Roxy with Rainbow design...

Moved back to the adult section where another friend had just arrived, they started to search for bikinis! The bikinis were all ON SALE! Can't really resist the temptation of it, I rushed to join my friends on the search! Tried for several and we each got a pair of bikinis! Planning for a trip to Gold Coast during Easter break which the bikinis can soon come in handy! LOL!

Went to Dotti and this time, my friend bought a black twinkling cap which she decided to wear it for Easter event of Klub Kandy! Then, we went for some nail colours which costing only $2 each... My friend bought almost half a dozen!

After that, we went to Starbucks for a drink and got our dinner at a Vietnamese Restaurant before going home!

What a big spending day again!!! Tomorrow is going to be another busy working day (although it's only for 4 hours with a lunch period of 2 hours)! Tired! So tired!

PARTY

Had my Tech 4 exam yesterday at 1pm, discussed about some of the test paper with friends before entering the exam hall, but we were still all kinda blur about how to do! It was something to do with Physics, and undeniable my Physics is always suck! That was an open-book exam, but it didn't seem to help much! Wahahahaha~! However, I did try my best to answer all the questions!

Reached home around 4.30 after the exam, sat back in front of my laptop which had been resting for the whole day! LOL! Checked on the emails and started surfing Facebook again! Nothing much to do actually. Prepared up myself to get ready for Stella's birthday at her apartment, I walked about 15 minutes to her house somewhere around Toowong. The food she prepared was awesome, so envy that she can cook so well! We enjoyed the food so much and after that... It's alcohol time!!! We had beers, wine and as well hard liquor~! We drank, we sang, we danced and we took photos! Really enjoy the food, drinks and the music a lot~! Kinda dizzy after drinking mixture of all the alcohols. Went back home around 12am, it was really fun but tiring! All the girls planned to go to KlubKandy for Easter celebration on 5th Arpil! WooHoo... Can't wait till then!

Checked my phone this morning and I just realised that my iPhone was on silent mode all the time. I had 9 missed calls from my mom! GOSH! Called her back immediately and she was so angry... 'I'm so sorry, mom!' And from her, I got to know that my brother was infected by Dengue fever again... The third time he got this, SIGH~! Wish that he can recover as soon as possible! Take care yo, BRO!

你会这样做吗？

1 经常亲吻她，趁她不注意
2 过马路时牵她的手。即使吵架。
3 一定要有属于你们自己的房子，即使不大。
4 一起听她喜欢的歌和她爱看的电影，陪她感动。
5 让她躺在你的腿上，可以抚摸她的头发。
6 她洗澡的时候唱歌给她听，让她不觉得闷。
7 哄她吃她不爱吃但有营养的食物。
8 用情侣牙刷，然后把你的牙刷和她的偷偷换一下。
9 当她很累时给她捏捏肩，捏捏脚，然后挠她脚心逗她开心。
10 偷偷录下她走来走去和睡觉的样子。不管她耍赖还是威胁就是不删。
11 没有理由的抱抱她。
12 她写的东西我一定用心的看，读懂内心的那个她。
13 周末为她做她喜欢吃的东西，然后散步。
14 在大天广众之下背她或停下来拥抱她。
15 在街上走的时候不会离她超过1米远的距离。
16 进餐厅的门或出图书馆的时候一定为她拉门让她先走。
17 陪她买菜杀价，她做饭你做汤。
18 趁她半睡半醒间为她盖被子，醒来先看看熟睡的她，然后亲一下她的额头。
19 在她特殊时期为她端上热的红糖水，然后若无其事的看电视。
20 偶尔早上打电话给她，听她佣懒的声音然后问她想吃什么给她带回去。
21 给她取可爱的外号，只有你能叫。
22 手机和电脑的背景一定是她的照片或你们的合影。
23 手机上的昵称一定是和别人不一样的，当你打给她时，她的姐妹看到会很羡慕。
24 在家帮她梳个幼稚的发型，然后叫她女儿。
25 如果出差一定带东西给她，虽然不贵，但证明你时刻都在想着她。
26 她坐上车，一定先为她拉上安全带，再为自己拉。
27 当她想要松开的时候一定再坚持抱她一会。
28 永远不会丢下她一个人，就算你无理取闹也一定要让她安全。
29 你心情不好的时候能同她说说，如果你不想说，就让你抱一下。
30 刚上的饭菜一定装作抢着吃的样子，多为她夹些。
31 当她无助时你能陪她爬爬山，看看夕阳。
32 吵架后绝对不冷战，哄她之后告诉她你是为她好。
33 睡觉的时候喜欢她抱着你，但当她背过身去一定也转身然后再抱她。
34 在她做家务的时候为她拍照，告诉她穿围裙的样子也一样很美。
35 如果她生病了一定细心照顾她，因为这时候她最脆弱，为她熬大大大补汤。
36 钱包里一定有她的照片。
37 下班回来一定会大声的说：老婆，我回来了。
38 半夜故意把被子往自己这边拉，让她离自己近些。
39 听她嘱咐我按时吃饭，多喝水多吃水果，说她罗嗦然后吻她。
40 打雷的时候把她揽到怀里睡，然后说：我怕怕。
41 帮她擦她吃东西留在嘴边的奶油的和果酱。
42 留一点点的胡渣在亲她的时候扎扎她。
43 在她的朋友面前细心的照顾她，让他们知道她的选择是对的。
44 在你的朋友面前细心的照顾她，不让她觉得你冷落了她。
45 有生之年陪她去趟她喜欢的城市或国家。
46 当她发呆，做饭，拖地或趴在阳台的时候，你会在身后揽住她。
47 不许她说对不起。告诉她这是圣旨。但可以用老公真好这四个字来代替。
48 即使是冬天，她说口渴你也会一溜烟下床帮她倒水，但回来她必须帮你暖身子。
49 当她钱包里钱不多的时候，你会拿给她说：帮我买双袜子，不用找了。
50 让她爱上你爱的游戏，让她爱上你爱的球队。
51 一起养只宠物。
52 在她能看到的地方写篇文章。
53 带她去游乐园，电影院，图书馆，博物馆，漫画展和小酒吧。
54 有一首关于我们故事的歌。每次去KTV都要唱。
55 当她要和你商量事情或说不开心的事的时候，一定放下手中的东西认真听。
56 如果有天她要离开你，你会挽留，也会放她走。告诉她受委屈的时候来找你。
57 抱着一颗感激的心和她相处，当你想发脾气的时候，你要学会忍耐。
58 下雨的时候打一把伞，迈一样的步伐踩水花不让天气影响她的心情。
59 去餐厅点她喜欢的菜，如果实在点不出就点没吃过的，一起喊好吃或难吃。
60 在你朋友和父母面前会夸赞她。不管她是否在场。
61 当她不理你时，就模仿她的动作、她的声音、她的表情、她撒娇时说的话。
62 送她回家一定把她送到门口，告诉她明天会来接她。
63 如果你有一天出了意外，希望她能找个人替你爱她照顾她。

1ST WORKING DAY

What a tiring day yesterday! Started my 1^st day, working in a restaurant in the city. Everything was so new to me, new staffs, new environment, and new experience! Arrived at the restaurant around 9.20am and waited for the manager to come around 9.30am. She taught me a lot before we got into the busy lunch hours! I couldn’t be at the front counter because I was still newbie and was not familiar with the menu yet, so I was in charge of the cleaning up! Rushed in and out to clear the table for the flow of customers! It was not really easy to work during the lunch hours and I was in the shift! It was really busy and tiring. However, the manager told me that it was not really considered busy yesterday! OMG! Are you sure? That was not considered a busy one? Then I really can’t imagine how busy will it be if it is considered “BUSY”! Finish my shift around 2pm, it was time for me to go home and ready up for my evening class!

At night, I tried to call him and asked for my test paper which I sent him requesting his help on some questions! However, he was out for supper with his client, AGAIN! Failed to ask what I wanted to, I hung up the call.

Was not able to fall asleep after I had lied on the bed for about half an hour, picked up my phone again, I called him instead! He didn’t pick up my call. Got his SMS after few seconds telling me that he missed my call. I called back again and we talked. He was as well hanging out with a bunch of friends at a stall near his apartment. Was planning to hang up the call so that I won’t be disturbing him for the hang out, but he insisted to talk! Okay, at least he is a different one! We talked for about an hour, and I was grumbling a lot. He is really a good friend to talk to; he never rejects my request, even though how ridiculous my request will be… He is being a caring one; he’ll always be the one accompanying me whenever I need him to. Seriously, having a good friend like him is really much better than having a lover who can hardly be there for me when I need him to be!!!

* he = SN, he = B

三角爱情游戏

这是一个不长不短的故事, 很复杂, 很愚蠢的三角爱情游戏…

珍是一个毕了业等着进入大学而无所事事的小女孩, 假期里来到了一间公司当实习生, 好充实下自己! 在公司里呆了快五个月, 在最后一个月里, 遇见了一个刚被调派回来的员工, 第一次的相遇, 是在羽球场上…

习惯了每个礼拜都会有两三天和同事们的羽球运动, 和往常一样, 珍到了羽球场, 却看见了一个陌生的脸孔. 他是谁? 后来从同事们的口中知道他是刚被调派回来的, 从现在开始就和他们一起工作… 没把他当一回事, 珍继续打球… 可是, 他却让珍注意到了他的存在, 他的羽球技术很好, 身手灵活, 虽然样子平凡, 但是球场上的他很引人注意… 回家之前, 稍稍在球场外聊了一下, 才知道他叫邬… 后来有人提议晚上去唱歌喝酒, 没人反对, 也就这样成事了, 邬却说他不想开车, 问他住哪里, 结果跟珍住的地方较近, 所以也就是珍去载他咯! 晚上, 到了他家门口去接他, 上车的时候闻到一股淡淡的香水味, 还真不错, 聊天之间才知道他已经三十出头! 看上去不太像, 过后的活动也没有什么特别的…

接下来的日子, 邬开始显得对珍很关心, 每天会定时找珍聊天, 晚上还会约珍出去喝茶聊天… 珍生病了, 邬还会特地送药来给珍, 对珍百般照顾, 呵护… 后来, 两个人变得很亲密, 有点像暧昧, 有点像情侣, 珍分不清楚到底是怎么一回事, 只是知道, 珍爱上了邬… 邬会带着珍回家见他的家人, 带着珍和他家人吃晚饭逛书展… 珍那时候真的感觉到很幸福…

过了一些日子, 珍发现邬找她的时间越来越少, 不再对珍嘘寒问暖… 相反的,在羽球场上发现, 他以前对珍的关心举动, 现在出现在另外一个女孩身上, 同样也是同事的莎… 为什么会那样? 珍不明白, 心很痛, 伤得很痛… 同事们也看不下去, 除了安慰, 也没有什么能够做的… 珍很想问个明白, 到底之前他对她的是真实的吗? 还是虚有其表? 珍不明白, 邬为什么可以改变的那么快? 邬说过珍是他遇见最体贴的, 也说过他很喜欢珍, 说过不管发生什么, 他都会陪在珍的身边的… 为什么?

忍无可忍之下, 珍打了通电话问个清楚, 得到的答案是更伤人的, “我和莎已经在一起了!” 当下的珍, 才知道自己一直都是一厢情愿, 一直都是个傻瓜… 莎也不是一个白痴, 她从头到尾都知道珍和邬的事, 她知道这样很对不起珍, 于是为了求证, 她拨了通电话给珍, 结果才知道, 邬是个大骗子, 说的话都不一至! 莎很生气, 挂了电话, 马上就和邬提出分手…

后来的日子里, 同事们没有再约邬出来… 间中还是会听到邬的消息, 说他又有了新的女朋友,后来不到一个月,又换了另一个女朋友… 断断续续的, 珍也不想再理会了…

最近,珍在面子书上发现了邬的踪影, 相片里是邬和他现任女友的照片… 上传者是珍好朋友的前男友(一个禽兽都不如的人渣) 的女友, 而邬的那位女友, 正是那位人渣女友的姐妹… 短短的几个月里, 邬不懂换了多少个女友… 现任女友听说是个酒吧妹呢!

你说, 这个世界是不是很小??? 真的很可笑… 他果然是珍最恨的一个人!!!

SHOPPING

Woke up quite late this morning around 11am, decided just to have some milk until afternoon. Met up with my friend at the city and we had our lunch at one of the shop in Elizabeth Arcade. The food was so so. Walked around the city not knowing what to buy for Stella as her birthday gift, we went to Myer and ended up we were shopping for ourselves! LOL! Based on what Jace and Sam told me, Stella likes rose product and Anna Sui. There's no Anna Sui at the city except perfume and we don't want to buy any of that for her. At last, we managed to get some rose products from L'Occitane! Hope she'll like them! Then, we did our own shopping again, and both buying the same handbag from Guess! The outlet was having 25% sale for all items! How can we miss the chance?

After that, we went for ice-cream and sat on the bench for a little chitchat! Suddenly, a stranger was shouting at us and approached us! Out of no where, he sat down beside me and started to chat up with me! GOSH! Who the hell is he? I was so shocked and he kept on talking and talking non-stop asking me questions! He asked us to join him and his friend for a drink! What the hack? I rejected him politely, he finally gave up and walked away! What a weirdo!!! It's time to go home, I grabbed Subway on my way home for dinner! What a happy shopping day and weekend...^^

BY KS LIM

BY KS LIM

关于爱情：不要认为后面还有更好的，因为现在拥有的就是最好的。不要认为还年轻可以晚些结婚，爱情是不等年龄的。不要因为距离太远而放弃，爱情可以和你一起坐火车的。不要因为对方不富裕而放弃，只要不是无能的人，勤劳可以让你们富裕的。不要因为父母反对而放弃，你会发现因为这个原因而反放弃的爱情，将是你一生的悔恨。其实对于爱情，越单纯越幸福。一生只谈一次恋爱是最好的，经历的太多了，会麻木；分离多了，会习惯；换恋人多了，会比较；到最后，你不会再相信爱情 (totally agree on this line, because I'm now just like what it stated)；你会自暴自弃；你会行尸走肉；你会与你不爱的人结婚，就这样过一辈子。

也许爱情是一部忧伤的童话，惟其遥远才真实。放弃一个爱你的人并不痛苦，放弃一个你爱的人那才痛苦 (I believe that almost everyone has gone through this before)。若是有缘，时间空间都不是距离，若是无缘总是相聚也无法合意。凡事不必太在意，更不需去强求，就让一切随缘 (if meeting someone right is all about 'letting it be' without striving for it, then wooers will no longer exist)。逃避不一定躲得过；面对不一定最难过；孤独不一定不快乐；得到不一定长久；失去不一定不再拥有。爱是一种享受，即使痛苦也会觉得幸福；爱是一种体会，即使心碎也会觉得甜蜜；爱是一种经历，即使破碎也会觉得美丽；不要因为寂寞而错爱，不要因为错爱而寂寞一生 (this is what always happens between us)。

关于伴侣：伴侣不是结婚时发誓非你不娶或非你不嫁的那个人，而是发现你身上有许多缺点仍然选择你的那个人；伴侣不是生活中你爱吃黄瓜他也爱吃黄瓜的那个人，而是你吃蛋清他吃蛋黄的那个人 (he can never understand this, because this is one of the reasons why he wanted to break up with me)；伴侣不是天黑了和你一起手挽手走进饭店的那个人，而是守在门口巴望你回来共进晚餐的那个人 (this is what I always did and awaited him to come back from work)；伴侣不是和你大谈爱情，把“我爱你”挂在嘴边的那个人，而是和你平淡的唠叨柴米油盐、锅碗瓢盆的那个人。在幸福的婚姻中，伴侣已不是一个具体的人，而是你和他在几十年的岁月中沉淀下来的：一份默契、一份温情、一份平淡、一份理解、一份宽容。爱他就要让他开心，这就是伴侣……

关于承诺：在古希腊传说中，情侣都将戒指套在对方的中指上，因为他们相信那儿有一根血管直通心脏。所以戒指的意思就是用心承诺！但是人世间有多少爱能生死白头，又有多少的情可以天长地久？所以你选择共度一生得未必是你最爱的，你最爱的未必能和你共度一生。多少的有情人走不进彼此的今生，只能苦苦地相约于来世；而多少的男男女女走过爱情走进婚姻却不会再珍惜彼此的付出。所以记得珍惜你爱的人，把每一个平淡的今天当成是彼此相依的最后一刻，好好握紧爱人的手，即使ta容颜已老，即使ta满面沧桑，那也是你记忆中永恒的温馨。别忘了守住对他的承诺，别忘了牵住他的手，一生一世一辈子……

关于人生：人生如梦，岁月无情。蓦然回首，才发现人活着是一种心情。穷也好，富也好，得也好，失也好。一切都是过眼云烟。想想，不管昨天、今天、明天，能豁然开朗就是美好的一天。不管亲情、友情、爱情，能永远珍惜就是好心情。记得有一个经典短信这样写着：曾经拥有的不要忘记；已经得到的更加珍惜；属于自己的不要放弃；已经失去的留作回忆；想要得到的一定要努力；累了把心靠岸；选择了就不要后悔 (this is what I always say: No regrets!)；苦了才懂得满足；痛了才享受生活；伤了才明白坚强 (absolutely right)；总有起风的清晨；总有绚烂的黄昏；总有流星的夜晚。人生就像一张有去无回的单程车票，没有彩排，每一场都是现场直播 (LIFE, there's no turning back)。把握好每次演出便是对人生最好的珍惜。把握现在，畅享人生！

关于微笑：被人误解的时候能微微的一笑，这是一种素养 (he always misunderstood me, but I no longer got the energy to explain anymore, just to strained a smile on my face and let it be)；受委屈的时候能坦然的一笑，这是一种大度；吃亏的时候能开心的一笑，这是一种豁达；处窘境的时候能自嘲的一笑，这是一种智慧；无奈的时候能达观的一笑，这是一种境界；危难的时候能泰然一笑，这是一种大气；被轻蔑的时候能平静的一笑，这是一种自信；失恋的时候能轻轻的一笑，这是一种洒脱。不管是有什么事情，为了什么原因，我们每天都要开心一笑~~

关于生活：日出东海落西山，愁也一天，喜也一天；遇事不钻牛角尖，人也舒坦，心也舒坦；每天领取谋生钱，多也喜欢，少也喜欢；少荤多素日三餐，粗也香甜，细也香甜；新旧衣服不挑捡，好也御寒，赖也御寒；常与知己聊聊天，古也谈谈，今也谈谈；全家老少互慰勉，贫也相安，富也相安。

关于幸福：相传幸福是个美丽的玻璃球，跌碎散落在世间的每个角落。有的人捡到多些，有的人捡到少些，却没有人能拥有全部。爱你所爱选你所选，珍惜现在所拥有的一切。人活着就是一种心情，把握今天，设置明天，储存永远。只要用心感受，幸福就会永远存在。

人总是对自己拥有的东西不珍惜，直到不再拥有时才会加倍怀念 (cherish the one you love or you'll regret) ，而在得知自己快失去自己所拥有的东西而又无能为力时，就寻死觅活地不肯放手，歇斯底里往往发生在这个时候，而对于生命的执著确实是到死才放手！

人生，没有那么简单……幸福伴随悲伤，快乐总和痛苦相伴，这就是人生。今天总要过去，明天充满未知，自己活得快乐没有遗憾就好。

I GET A JOB

Got a call from Jackpot Dining and finally, I get a part-time job. Was informed to go for an interview next Wednesday and start training before I can work there! Hope everything will be just fine. I was too excited until I’d forgotten to ask for the pay of ea hour! However, based on what my friend told me who worked there before, the pay was AUD 9 per hour! Personally was not really care about the pay at all, as long as I can get something to do as to fill up my leisure time, then I’ll be satisfying enough! Yes, good luck for me!

Went to sing karaoke with friends last night at cyber city in fortitude valley! It costs AUD 36.90 ea; including dinner and drinks where ea person can choose one dish along with rice, but it was still so expensive man! It was a session of 4 hours which you can sing as many songs as you want within the period. It was really fun, being the first time to sing in Brisbane since I was here since last July. The songs are still considered quite updated, at least some of the new songs I haven’t listen before. Maybe it’s because I hardly get updated to new Mandarin songs for a long time. The dishes provided were actually quite nice! I really enjoy the food so much.

After that, we all followed on a friend’s car home. However, he missed so many turnings and ended up the one who was supposed to go home first became the last one to go home! LOL! Poor driver, he had to fetch 5 of us home before he can go home! Wakakaka! Never mind, he is a nice guy though! Next Wednesday will be Stella’s birthday. Had a plan with Jace to get a shared present for her tomorrow in the city and as well do a little shopping, I guess? Wonder what to get for her… Hmmm…

FAITH IN LOVE?

Have been thinking a lot lately, maybe it’s because I’m not that busy this semester, ends up I’ve got a lot of leisure time.

Read a blog titled “Relationship and Flings”. It was really an interesting post. As this reminds me about whether or not I was clear enough on all my pre-relationships… I’d been into so many relationships before, and I found out that not every single one can be said as “being in a relationship”. Those were to be ‘qualified’ as a relationship, should at least be more than half a year, I guess. So, seriously, I was not into so many relationships but flings instead.

What’s fling? Through Wikipedia, you’ll know that fling is a brief of casual relationship. And what’s a casual relationship? It is defined as a physical and emotional relationship between two people who may have a sexual relationship or a near-sexual relationship without necessarily demanding or expecting the extra commitments of a more formal romantic relationship. Yes! That’s what I’d gone through so many times, lasted for few months and ended without any commitments! No pain, no awkward feelings, and definitely continues on with friendship.

I don’t know why I failed in all the past relationships. However, I do believe that relationship is based on both parties but not one! Sometimes, I’m so envy of friends with long term relationship. Why can’t I be like them? I always ask myself the question that I can never get the answer!

When time goes by as my experience gained from pain and memories, I don’t trust promises and commitments! They are not meant to be kept but to break… So, I don’t give any promises as well because I don’t have the full confident on achieving one!

Few days ago, I chatted with a guy which he seemed to face a lot of problems in his previous relationships. And definitely, he felt very upset! As being a stranger for him, he shared so much of his inner voice and I was being a good audience, tried to listen and to comfort him. He asked me about mine, too. And the only thing I told him was “when you no longer have the faith in love, then you’ll no longer feel the pain in love…” He was shocked on what I typed and so did I. Is it true that I no longer have faith? Or it is just an excuse for me to run away from something/someone? I don’t know. I guess I’m just too tired of being in the world of “romantic relationship”!

DESSERT TIME

It's DESSERT time!!!

After having dinner with friends at 7-8 Restaurant, we went to the shop nearby to grab some dessert! It is a dessert shop with a theme of maidservant! All the workers are dressed just like maidservant, lovely costumes, nice decorations and the desserts weren't bad, too! And these were what we ordered:

(Green Tea Ice-cream, Green Tea Mixed, Fried Banana, Chocolate Fondue)

And there's something on the wall which I found quite meaningful...

RELATIONSHIP? FLING?

Read one of my friend's blog which I found really interesting. The topic of the blog is "Relationship and Flings". I do agree with some of the points. If you guys want to have a look at his blog post, you can go to this website http://roychiew.xanga.com/717476222/relationship-and-flings/...

The lines which really impressed me are:

1. "There's no such thing as a 3 months relationship, vice versa, there's no such things as a 2 years fling"

2. "A fling can easily turn into a relationship, likewise a relationship can easily turn into a fling"

For my summing up after reading his blog - Just be clear on what you really into and don't ever make the other party to misunderstand the true 'relation' you're having with him/her, to lessen the broken-hearts and also unnecessary vexations!

HUNTING FOR SUPPER

Went out with one of my friend who I met in Tawau during Chinese New Year! We just recently find out that we are both staying almost at the same area in Brisbane! Hahaha... She called me for a supper just now. Was planning to have Dim Sum at The Manor along with her friends and I got to know new friends! We drove all the way there and the shop happened to be closed. So we finally decided to eat at a Hong Kong restaurant. Her friends are nice and friendly. It's good to know that there's some close friends around!

Reached home around 12.45am, feeling so tired. Went into my room and checked on my MSN! So many offline messages... Replied one by one and some happened to be offline already. And now, it's time for me to sleep! Really exhausted! Good night everyone!

INTERESTING

Met someone who I find quite interesting to chat with yesterday in MSN. Where did he get my MSN? From AhMoi of course. A website which I joined few years back, stopped for quite sometime and is recently active again. He is a flight steward, a part-time DJ and an entertainer, funny and nice! Chatting with him is really fun. He talks a lot. He dances and sings in front of the cam! He shares his interest which is almost the same as me – the music!

(Afro Medusa, Seamus Haji, David Guetta, LMFAO)

He introduces so many nice songs for me and I love them so much! He is definitely an amusing one! He doesn’t act like his age, definitely NOT! He is way younger than what he actually is! It is really a waste of being a flight steward and has not enough time to be in any relationship! With his look and his personality, he would probably married by now! Not really knowing well about him, but I hope that he won’t be a bad one! It is really hard to meet someone that can talk crap with you all the time and he did! That was great! I really do enjoy chatting with this kind of person. No hard feeling and you don’t feel awkward!

Got his SMS around 12++am, I was just preparing to sleep. Feeling happy that he’ll SMS me that he promised to and he did! However, I was too tired and dizzy. After a few SMS, I fall asleep.

Woke up quite early this morning around 9.30am! It’s Sunday and I don’t have any plan! Had some cereal for breakfast and sat back in front of my laptop. Checked on my MSN and this time I got his offline messages showing a time stamp around 5am! Gosh! He was still awake at 3am? Probably just get back from work/drinking with his co-workers? Alerting me about my objective of being in Brisbane and not to forget about taking good care of my own!

PS: Of course I know that and YOU need not to worry, okay? I’ll always remember what YOU said!

* he = M , he = B , he/you = SN

WELCOMING PARTY

Last night was a crazy night, at least for my housemates; they did have a crazy party! Everyone dressed with recyclable materials such as plastic bags, paper boxes, etc. The party started around 9pm. Before that, one of the housemates came and knocked on my door and asked me to join them for the party! I said “Okay, maybe later!” Shut my door and continued on with my internet surfing. It was so lively out at the dining hall. Didn’t really feel like joining them for the party. I stayed in my room with my headset on, listening to the songs that I had just finished downloading.

About 2 hours later, again someone knocked on my door! It was a guy this time, a stranger, and he invited me passionately to join them for the party! I tried to reject but I failed. So I went out of my room to the dining hall, standing there not knowing what to do and just looked at the crowd. Everyone was awesome with their innovative outfits! All the guys were naked at the upper part! That was HOT! Girls were all sexy and seducing! WOW! What kind of party was this? I thought my housemate was telling me that this is a ‘Welcoming Party’?

A moment later, I went back to my room, I just can’t fit into the crowd! Around 11pm, I grabbed my towel and walked to the shower. Tried to keep myself awake as I didn’t know when will the party ended and I can’t sleep with the party ON! After awhile, another knocking on my door and I heard someone shouting “Jeanette! Jeanette! Come out!” Okay, I guessed this time I can’t run away! Went out again with another housemate holding my hand, walking around the dining hall to meet some new friends! (I can barely remember their names now) There were about 30-40 people!!! How can I remember their names under this kind of surroundings?

Sat back on the couch, I looked around and suddenly, the guy that knocked on my door at the very first time showed up. His very first line was “Finally, I see you again!” We talked to each other and the only few things I remembered about him is – Jason, American, Engineering Program at UQ! Gosh! Another Jason! I have had tons of friends named Jason! Meanwhile, my housemate introduced another guy. What’s his name? I’d forgotten! I can only remember that he is a Mexican and also a business management student from UQ!

The party continued on until 3am and the dining hall was a total mess! They'd promised to clean it up after the party. I hope so! I headed back to my room feeling exhausted! After replying his SMS which I left out hours ago, I fall asleep in seconds!

* he = B

改变

很久很久, 没有用华语打部落格了! 今天的天气, 凉爽得让我觉得有点冷, 风吹来的时候, 身体还是会稍稍的颤抖!

昨天没有课, 一整天除了对着电脑无所事事, 做了一些日文课的作业, 就是花了几个小时在和我的干弟弟聊天哈拉! 先是把借来的网路摄像头调了个老半天, 再来就是一直断线的问题, 真的是气死我了! 干弟弟还是一样没变, 笑起来就是有那种电死人的咪咪眼, 我很喜欢看他笑, 因为真的超帅!!! 时间真的过得很快, 我认识他也快4年了吧? 怎么认识的呢? 当然是玩线上游戏的时候认识的咯! 那时候的他, 和一个同是玩线上游戏的女生交往, 还因为这样, 求我陪他买礼物送给那个女的, 也就这样, 我们见面了!

当时的他, 单纯的可爱, 而且很害羞! 为了一个不懂在哪里来的女生, 连见面也没有见过的人, 只因为人家生日, 就这样傻傻的拉我出去陪他买礼物, 还不懂要怎么寄快邮!!! 你说好不好笑? 那时的他, 和现在的他, 除了样子没变, 其他的都应该变很多了!

他不再是那么的单纯, 不再会傻傻的去为一个女孩做那些事! 可是, 他还是会傻傻的花上一个多小时, 转站坐公车, 背着他那又重又大的书包, 大老远从他的学校, 来到我们约好的地方陪我逛街, 只因为我的一个电话! 哈! 这样的干弟弟去哪里找?

为什么我说他变很多? 感觉上, 他不再是以前那个害羞的小男孩, 现在的他, 什么都可以开怀的大谈, 大大方方的搭上我的肩, 陪我逛街帮我拿东西, 还会抽烟, 偶尔会和朋友到酒吧喝喝酒... 什么原因让他改变? 是单纯的因为他长大了吗? 我不懂, 不过, 我倒是还能接受他的改变!!!

其实每个人, 都会改变, 随着环境, 随着时间, 随着经验和教训. 人总会成长, 失败了就得站起来再闯, 受伤过就会更坚强!!! 你问我变了吗? 我可以很肯定地告诉你, 我变很多, 成长了很多, 不过还是那么爱玩! ^^ 呵呵呵...!!!

UNSTOPPABLE

Rascal Flatts - Unstoppable

Yeah yeah yeah..Hey

So, so you made a lot of mistakes

Walked down the road a little sideways

Cracked a rib when you hit the wall

Yeah, you've had a pocket full of regrets

Pull you down faster than a sunset

Hey, it happens to us all

When the cold hard rain just won't quit

And you can't see your way out of it

You find your faith has been lost and shaken

You take back what's been taken

Get on your knees and dig down deep

You can do what you think is impossible

Keep on believing, don't give in

It'll come and make you whole again

It always will, it always does

Love is unstoppable

Love, it wear the ring of stone

Bring you back to being born again

oh, it's a helping hand when you need it most

A lighthouse shining on the coast

That never goes dim

When your heart is full of doubt

And you think that there's no way out

You find your faith has been lost and shaken

You take back what's been taken

Get on your knees and dig down deep

You can do what you think is impossible

Keep on believing, don't give in

It'll come and make you whole again

It always will, it always does

Love is unstoppable

Like a river keeps on rolling

Like the north wind blowing

Don't it feel good knowing

Yeah

You find your faith has been lost and shaken

You take back what's been taken

Get on your knees and dig down deep

You can do what you think is impossible

Keep on believing, don't give in

It'll come and make you whole again

It always will, it always does

Love is unstoppable

Love is unstoppable

So you made a lot of mistakes

Walked down the road a little sideways

Love, love is unstoppable

This is really a nice song, I love the rhythm so much! Heard this when I was watching CSI Season 10 Episode 14...

I WANT PEACE

Walked home from Toowong just now after having dinner with my classmate, so tired~! Was planning to take the bus home actually, but the bus seemed to take years to reach the stop, so I decided to walk home. Long time never walked home already... It was a good exercise, I was sweating when I reached home just now. It feels great!

Thought of him when I was walking home. We used to walk home several times from the city and from Toowong. Suddenly, HE popped into my mind, telling me not to think of those sad, disappointed and past moments! As HE told me to quote HIS words to him before - "No need to understand as you know better and no need to frame me for all the past tense. Which I never did to you. Your pea brain don't seem like work as you could. As you have all along being so selfish and selfminded. I do have my life and I didn't leave you any offline message which I can talk it out rather than doing it cowardly. Stop acting like an old child!!" HE was angry, angry of him being so rude to me till I was so sad and cried in the phone. I can understand why is HE so angry. However, I don't have the courage to quote HIS words to him, as this will make endless problems and wrangles! Everything is a PAST. And I don't want anything to be more complicated! I want PEACE!

Thanks to HIM! I know HE cares about me, but I just can't promise anything/do anything for HIM. So sorry!

* HE = SN , he = L

SICK

Sigh...! Having flu, cough and blocked nose, because of the rain and the weather, again I fall sick! Went to class just now and the very 1st question my friend asked me is "Are you sick? Your voice sounds sexy... Seriously, you have to take care!"

Yea, she's right! Gonna take care of myself really well so that my illness won't get any worse. Or else, someone's gonna scold me for being not careful enough! What will I need? Rest more and drink more water, intake of Vitamin C? Yea, I guess so!

SEXPO

Went to the SEXPO event today, really enjoy and have fun with my friends! Kinda lazy to upload those SEXPO pictures here. So just add me in my Facebook (Jeanette Pang/jamie_pty@hotmail.com) and get to enjoy the pictures I took from SEXPO 2010!

After the event, we went to have our early dinner at a Korean BBQ Restaurant. The food is nice, but expensive!

Tomorrow, it's time for me to search for a part-time job in the city! Or else I'll be too free this semester staying at home like a hobo! Printed my resume and as well apply some of the part-time jobs online! Wish me luck ok? Thanks ya~!

HEARTBREAK

He is angry again and I guess...this time we are over, can't even be friends! He requested me to "get out of his life"... So I did! He never being so rude to me, but he did just now in MSN. Scolding me rudely and that really makes me heartbreak! Don't really want to waste anymore time to make explanation which for him is meaningless and untrusty. I have no choice but to disappear from his life. This is what he wants from me! Goodbye & take care!

* he = L

UPSET

Feeling so upset last night...

Still he can't understand me, not even a little bit of me...
He only believe that what he thinks is right, never listen for explanations, never accept any, too! We have been together for about half a year and he can never understand me, can't even read my mind for just a little bit. Compare to my friend which I have known for a very short period of time, he can understand who I really need and what I am thinking all the time. How can this happen? Is it because he never sincere enough? Or just because I'm too hard to be understood?

And HIM, popped into me in Facebook just after my slight argument which made me so upset and HIM, as well can be sensitive enough to feel something was not right in me! Gosh...! The whole world can understand me and he CAN'T! Feeling much better after talking with HIM in the phone. Don't really want to mention much about what happened, but HE can probably guess it with no doubt. After the call, I fall asleep in no time!

Thanks for always being there for me, you guys are always my good friends ever!

* he = L , he = B , HIM = SN

FUN, MEANINGFUL & HAPPY

I'm back...back to my little room...

Went to my friend's house far away at Diamond Place on Friday for an overnight-Lami-session. Really had a lotsa fun there. His friends are all funny, nice and friendly. Besides, I did copy some movies and series for my leisure time activity. It's always great to have close friends around. I really can't wait for another drop-by soon.

Later will be going for a movie "Alice in the Wonderland (3D)" at 6.30pm with another bunch of friends that I just met recently. Although I'm not so close with them, I do believe that we'll be having another great time hanging out.

And for tomorrow... SEXPO! Not really sure what kind of event it is. Based on what my friend told me, it's about SEX! My friend asked me to join them for the event and so I bought the ticket online. After that, I'm planning to go for a check on the price of some items which he requested yesterday! ^^... Wish that my following weekends will be just like this weekend - - FUN, MEANINGFUL & HAPPY!

MISS

Suddenly recall of some sweet memories...

Miss the time he brought me out for dinner at a Japanese Restaurant...

Miss the time he gave me a ride around the Brisbane city...

Miss the time he brought me to the look-out point during last winter...

Miss the time we had a walk from Southbank to the bridge...

Miss the time I hid under his comforter whenever I felt cool...

Miss the time we went for groceries every Saturday/Sunday...

Miss the time I waited him to come home and had dinner with me...

The most I miss... is the feeling of me relying on him... the feeling of him hugging me in his arms... the pumping of his heart and his body temperature...

I can no longer feel these anymore... We are not even considered as friends...

Is it because we used to be together? Or this is just because I still can't totally let go...

Try so hard to keep everything out of my mind...

Try so hard to control myself not to think of the past...

Try so hard to be friendly with him, to treat him as a friend...

However, he seems to resist, cold and detached...

I can no longer care the one I really wanted to care...

Yet he still misunderstand who I really care the most which I can't do it in actions nor speak out through words...

Speechless... Helplessness... I truly hope that we can still become friends... True friends that are trustworthy...

* he = L

TRUE FRIENDS

It is kinda confusing recently, questions are all around my mind. Why is he acting so weird? Am I not caring enough or I care too much? Is it so hard to be friends? I just don’t understand. What’s wrong with him… I’m really trying to be friendly… Am I overdone it?

Housemates will be having party later at the living hall. She invited me to join, but I refused. Our channel is just too different I guess. I found it so hard to blend in…

Spider web on my window casement continuing to the fence, with a spider hanging on the web…Ewww…Disgusting!!! No one can help me to clear that thing, and I’m so afraid of bugs… What can I do? Sigh~~~

Chatted in the MSN with a friend last night and he kept telling me the same line over and over – “Maybe you think that you’re not as good as what I see, but you’re not as bad as what you think you’re… Just maintain who you’re and don’t change any of you…” While, another friend was telling me that “No matter how complicated you think you’re, only someone that truly know you well can understand who you really are…” I’m so happy to have both of them as my friends, because they really can read my mind very very well…! Lucky to have friends like them… Really appreciate that…

* he = L , he(MSN) = PY , he = K

RAIN RAIN RAIN

Another rainy day. The weather is really cool outside. I prefer to stay at home and have a nice nap, but I got class at 5pm today. I left my apartment approximately 4.30pm with my umbrella that I bought years ago without using it more than 10 times, I guess. I rushed to the bus stop to catch the bus which was about to take-off, and my legs were half wet due to the water splash. Sigh!

The lecturer was really cute. Her teaching was just like a kindergarten teacher. We laughed the whole class period. However, we did learn a lot as well. After a 2 hours lecture, the rain remained the same. Drizzling!

I’m having headache now, might because of getting a bit of the rain just now. Wondering what is he doing now? Does he miss me like I do? Hope everything is fine. Gonna continue streaming my show now!!! XD

* he = L