十二大情人节

Just to share a bit with you guys!


（十二大情人节） =]
1 月 14 日 - 日记情人节 Diary Day
2 月 14 日 - 西洋情人节 Valenties's Day
3 月 14 日 - 白色情人节 White Day
4 月 14 日 - 黑色情人节 Black Day
5 月 14 日 - 玫瑰情人节 Rose Day
6 月 14 日 - 亲吻情人节 Kiss Day
7 月 14 日 - 银色情人节 Silver Day
8 月 14 日 - 绿色情人节 Green Day
9 月 14 日 - 音乐情人节 / 相片情人节 Music Day / Photo Day
10 月 14 日 - 葡萄酒情人节 Wine Day
11 月 14 日 - 橙色情人节 / 电影情人节 Orange Day / Movie Day
12 月 14 日 - 拥抱情人节 Hug Day

百般纠结

又回到我熟悉的地方，感觉却有点陌生！离开了一年，很多东西都变得不一样了，新的面孔，新的店面，还有很多很多...

今天，我终于见到他了，差不多一年没有见面没有联络的他... 真的很希望能够问他些什么，却总是没办法开口，想了想，这样的朋友关系是不是会好过进一步的情侣关系呢？最终，没能开口，也不方便在他朋友面前把礼物交给他，我把他的生日礼物留在后座，就下车了... 我真的很希望有更多的时间和他单独相处，却不敢，也找不到理由可以和他单独出去，我没有那个勇气，真的没有...

昨天和朋友们开开心心的出去喝酒唱歌，却在不知不觉中留下了眼泪，把朋友们都给吓坏了... 哭的原因其实我也不太清楚，只知道自己想起他的时候，心很痛，然后眼眶就湿了... 朋友说我傻，我不是不知道... 他们叫我大胆的去问问他的想法，我不是不想问，而是很害怕，害怕失去了这段友谊，害怕以后见面会尴尬...

我人还在澳洲的时候都不太会流泪的，却在越接近回来的时候心里开始不自觉得纠结，看着身边的朋友都在谈恋爱，自己却在无止境的等待一段也许永远都不可能会得到答案的爱情，真的很困扰！恨自己的懦弱，恨自己的执著，到底那个敢爱敢恨的自己去哪了？那个一向来拿得起放得下的自己去哪了？

两年了，我真的很想知道他对我有没有感觉，却永远猜不到他在想些什么... 强求不了，我没那个勇气去求证，也许这样下去，有一天我会放得下他吧？

这个假期

这几天的天气真的变化无常, 一时刮大风, 一时下大雨, 有时灰暗的渡过一整天, 有时小雨下个一整天... 明明是夏季, 却冷得像冬天, 地球真的病得很严重...
以前的我, 很喜欢雨天, 总觉得可以淋雨是一件很快乐的事, 也许是因为本身淋再多的雨都不会生病的关系吧? 要说我身体很健康吗? 不见得! 至少我知道自己身体到底哪里有问题, 可是就算知道, 有时还是会很犯贱的不顾一切做自己爱做的事情, 只希望可以让自己在当下快乐一些些...
现在的我, 看到雨天就只想躲在家里, 什么都不做, 懒懒地对着电脑荧幕无所事事的, 简直是人生一大享受! 有时候逼不得已要出门, 还会对着雨天咒骂, 麻烦的是要带雨伞呀! 手上还要大包小包的哪怕任何一样东西会被淋湿!
除了工作, 就是和朋友出门走走, 吃喝玩乐... 成绩已经出炉了, 该找的教师也找了, 该做的也做了,  改变不了的事实也就罢了, 我不想让自己想太多, 只希望让自己压力少一点, 虽然还是很对不起家人, 尤其是妈咪...
自知消瘦了许多, 不是我不吃, 只是真的没有什么食欲, 食物总是在吃不到一半就觉得饱了, 再继续吃只觉得很辛苦! 明明是要尽量增肥的, 却恰好相反! 气死我了!!!
现在就是搞签证的事, 等这是弄好了, 才可以计划接下来要怎么走... 保佑我一切顺利, 拜托!

HOLIDAY

Just finished the very last submission, to be frank, without any confidence whether I'm gonna pass this. However, I feel really lucky that my family will always stand by my side no matter what happen, especially my mom. She always says "Take it easy, as long as you've done your best, everything will be just alright." Thanks mom, I love you!

Slept for 5 hours straight after the submission, I guess I was exhausted. Called my mom to tell her that I've finally finished everything and *hopefully* I can graduate this year. Pray for myself!

Other then working, I guess I can at least enjoy my holiday before the results come out...

PHOBIC

Went to someone's birthday just now. Well, the birthday girl is actually not to say my friend, just a close friend's friend.

I was busy playing with my friend's new camera that he bought few days ago. He said that he was kind of regret to get that camera instead of getting an iPad. I was actually in a moment of exciting to take over that camera with AUD650. However, when I posted my thought on Facebook, the feedback that I got wasn't good, claiming that the price for a second hand camera was way too high. I felt so sorry to him with my excitement on wanting his camera so much at first but never got any good comments from my friends which actually made me kind of down on giving up the camera. When I was still busy playing with his camera and stuff, I heard screaming from the kitchen. Didn't really care much about that, maybe they were just too happy on something.

Dinner time! Before getting settled at the dining table, the birthday girl continued her screaming. And the reason behind that, was actually about something happened to her car. Her friends had actually got way too drunk until threw out in her new car! She brought it for car washing and stuff but still the interior stink. Well, I can understand that she was really mad about that and definitely pissed off. Still I don't think that she can scream as her will at the dining table when everyone else was trying to enjoy their dinner. It really annoyed me! Now I know how squeamish a person can be! To be honest, I don't really have friends are as freaky as she is and if I do, that friend will definitely a black listed one.

Too tired to actually say a word, I emptied everything out from my plate, helped myself out of the dining table. Walked straight back into my friend's room and continued my Facebook. After having a piece of the green tea birthday cake which sweeten up my mood a little bit, I left the house at no time!

Right before I stepped into my apartment unit, I can tell that the stereo on the other side was to the max. Housemates were having another birthday party at the living hall. DAMN! How come I forgot about that. They were just about to start when I left for dinner just now. I opened the door slowly, just in case I knocked someone behind the door. They were all sitting in circle, staring at me. I smiled at them gently, and walked into my room. Few seconds later, 3 of my housemates knocked on my door, asking me to join them for the night. "Sorry, but I've got some work to do still, can't really join you guys. Just take your time, enjoy the night. No worries about the volume, I'm totally fine with that." Showing a little bit of my tiredness, they seemed to feel sorry about bothering me with the music which they can't help either. Though, I promised to join them the next time.

Nah! Compare to which I was facing at my friend's house, to be frank, I preferred the music!!! And seriously, I didn't mind much about the volume because I'd got used to it. LOL...