I wonder what will it be? Really can't wait to see how special the present is!!!
No matter what is he going to give me...I'm sure that I'll like it very much~! ^^
* he = L
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
WAITING
He said he will be preparing a very special "x'mas+new year+valentine" gift for me...
I wonder what will it be? Really can't wait to see how special the present is!!!
No matter what is he going to give me...I'm sure that I'll like it very much~! ^^
I wonder what will it be? Really can't wait to see how special the present is!!!
No matter what is he going to give me...I'm sure that I'll like it very much~! ^^
Saturday, December 26, 2009
UNFORGETTABLE X'MAS
Christmas had just passed; I’m still up to update my blog. Nothing was so special for this Christmas. I had no received any present from him, other than just a greeting message. What an “unforgettable” Christmas without Christmas dinner with him, without Christmas present from him, not even a single Christmas celebration night with him.
To be honest, I’m not happy. Really unhappy! I don’t really care whether he gives me any presents for Christmas or not. However, I do care that he doesn’t really spend much time with me during Christmas, especially a Christmas dinner with me which I’m looking forward for so long. I spent all my time to prepare a present which I feel that it is so meaningful for him, but he doesn’t seem to like it at all. I should have known it, but the present really meant a lot to me, so I decided to give him no matter he likes it or not.
(part of the preparation of HIS Christmas present)
PS: the outcome is not really a good one, so i refuse to post the picture up, LOL!
He might be busy spending time with his family and friends. I can understand that he doesn’t really have much time for me. Suddenly I feel that I am so stupid, too stupid to accompany him in Brisbane until Christmas Eve, too obsessively thought that he is going to plan a Christmas dinner with me, too curious to find out what will he give me for Christmas present. Everything is just delusion. Feeling so disappointed when the clock reached 12am just now and I get nothing from him but just a call telling me that he was going out with his friends for a drink. Try to comfort myself a little bit with a lie – maybe he is just too excited to return home and busy planning for his gathering with friends until he neglects a little ME? Yes, this might be the only excuse that I can think of, just to console myself for being not too upset.
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ME, A LONELY CHRISTMAS TO ME~!!! AND I WISH FOR A HAPPY NEW YEAR~!!!
* he = L
Monday, December 21, 2009
TODAY IS SPECIAL
Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie.
Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie.
Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."
LOVE YOU
We argue again and this time, we both stay silent. Just acting like strangers, talking to each other softly, at least I try not to put too many emotions again on my face, try to calm myself down. I really want to know, are you happy to be with me? Or you are just enduring? I am happy, undeniably happy to be with you, although not all the time, but most of the time, I am. How about you? You seem to be so stress, stressing out by work, and still stressing out by me, by our relationship. I try hard to keep myself as tolerance as possible as everyone knows, I'm capricious. Not to fuss about everything, although I am always looking for fairness in relationship, but there will never be one. Sometimes my misgiving might lead to more and more misunderstanding. Arguments start to burst out in no time, uncontrollable. I hardly raise my voice in arguments, just to hope that you don’t, too. However, you can hardly control your anger and unsatisfactory, I can understand. Every night I make a vow, not knowing who I’m making to, the same wish I make, is to be together happily and not having unnecessary arguments with you anymore. 2009 will be the 1st year for us celebrating Christmas and New Year and I hope this will not be the last. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you~! Love you~!
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
GOING BACK SOON
Woohoo~! Going back soon...
Really can't wait to go back to my hometown, get some nice food that I can't get at Australia, hang out with all my friends and buddies, spend some time with my family~!
Woohoo~! Wait ya guys~! Jeanette is coming back~!!!
Really can't wait to go back to my hometown, get some nice food that I can't get at Australia, hang out with all my friends and buddies, spend some time with my family~!
Woohoo~! Wait ya guys~! Jeanette is coming back~!!!
Monday, December 7, 2009
DREAM
I dreamt of you, dreamt of you sliding a ring into my forefinger...
It was so sweet, it felt so blessed, I wish I would never awake...
At that moment, the world was filled with joy & happiness...
I wish I would never awake, never awake from that sweet dream...
It was so sweet, it felt so blessed, I wish I would never awake...
At that moment, the world was filled with joy & happiness...
I wish I would never awake, never awake from that sweet dream...
Thursday, November 26, 2009
WORRIES
Having weird dreams for sometimes since the holiday starts! Dreams about failing for the courses, dreams about bugs, dreams about family and friends, all sorts of weird dreams I have never had before. Everytime I have these kind of weird dreams; I will definitely share with him. He will just look at me and say “Why are you so weird?”, petting my head and ask me not to worry so much, not to think too much. I guess I’m really being kind of weird recently; is it because I’m too tense on myself?
It is really happy that the holiday has finally started and all the assignments have come to an end. However, I start to worry about the results! Yes! The result! I got no confident at all for my result this semester! Everything seems to be so blur and confusing. Is it because I have got out of track for almost 1 year from this architecture stuff? I tried so hard through the semester to be more creative and innovative in design, yet my brain always went blank. There’s nothing else I can do now. Being regret is useless at this point. The only thing I can do now is to wait. Wait for the stupid f**king results! If I fail, I can only blame on myself to be not trying hard enough, if I’m so lucky to pass, then really thank GOD for everything!
AGAIN, GOOD LUCK FOR ME TO GET AT LEAST A PASS FOR ALL MY SUBJECTS~!!! PLZ!!!
It is really happy that the holiday has finally started and all the assignments have come to an end. However, I start to worry about the results! Yes! The result! I got no confident at all for my result this semester! Everything seems to be so blur and confusing. Is it because I have got out of track for almost 1 year from this architecture stuff? I tried so hard through the semester to be more creative and innovative in design, yet my brain always went blank. There’s nothing else I can do now. Being regret is useless at this point. The only thing I can do now is to wait. Wait for the stupid f**king results! If I fail, I can only blame on myself to be not trying hard enough, if I’m so lucky to pass, then really thank GOD for everything!
AGAIN, GOOD LUCK FOR ME TO GET AT LEAST A PASS FOR ALL MY SUBJECTS~!!! PLZ!!!
Sunday, November 22, 2009
BORING
The third day of holiday since the last assignment had been passed up? Bored! Really bored! Nothing much can do. Busy thinking and planning of what to get him for Christmas gift. Had an idea in my mind weeks ago. Seriously don’t know whether he will like the gift I’m going to present, but I decided to give it a try, at least, that gift means a lot to me, hope it will be the same for him.
Decision made, I bought all the ‘ingredients’ needed, and get started on my ‘plan’. So long so far, the ‘outcome’ is quite satisfying since it’s the first time I do something like that, I don’t really expect much. I spent two nights on my ‘plan’, slept around 4am almost everyday. Not to say that I need that long period of time to get my ‘plan’ done. It’s just the problem that I can’t really fall asleep early.
This morning, a long-looking-forward-to SATURDAY! Woke up the time he entered my room. Still I was too tired to get out from my bed. He requested me to on my laptop so that he can have his manga surfing while I continued my sweet dream. Woke up exactly 12 in the afternoon, going to prepare a very simple ‘Indo-Mee’ breakfast for him as he requested whilst I had tuna sandwich with cheese! My fav cheese!
Went for ice-cream session in the city around 4pm, walk around South Bank, and then get home. It was really a hot sunny day. Can’t really imagine how HOT it will be during summer! He prepared mince meat spaghetti for dinner. It was undeniable awesome. His cooking skill is way on top of me. Oh gosh! Feeling so embarrassing being a girl with bad cooking skill. Not that I can’t cook, it’s just that my food won’t be as tasty as his!
Got a little argument just now about something really minor, it was my fault, I knew it, being emotional. He went back to his room after the silence between us, I didn’t chase after him to apologize. Again, I feel a little bit regret on that now, but I think tomorrow everything will be fine again. Or else, I really got no idea what can I do to fix it!
Hope that tomorrow will be a warming sunny Sunday! Cheers for HOLIDAYS~!
Decision made, I bought all the ‘ingredients’ needed, and get started on my ‘plan’. So long so far, the ‘outcome’ is quite satisfying since it’s the first time I do something like that, I don’t really expect much. I spent two nights on my ‘plan’, slept around 4am almost everyday. Not to say that I need that long period of time to get my ‘plan’ done. It’s just the problem that I can’t really fall asleep early.
This morning, a long-looking-forward-to SATURDAY! Woke up the time he entered my room. Still I was too tired to get out from my bed. He requested me to on my laptop so that he can have his manga surfing while I continued my sweet dream. Woke up exactly 12 in the afternoon, going to prepare a very simple ‘Indo-Mee’ breakfast for him as he requested whilst I had tuna sandwich with cheese! My fav cheese!
Went for ice-cream session in the city around 4pm, walk around South Bank, and then get home. It was really a hot sunny day. Can’t really imagine how HOT it will be during summer! He prepared mince meat spaghetti for dinner. It was undeniable awesome. His cooking skill is way on top of me. Oh gosh! Feeling so embarrassing being a girl with bad cooking skill. Not that I can’t cook, it’s just that my food won’t be as tasty as his!
Got a little argument just now about something really minor, it was my fault, I knew it, being emotional. He went back to his room after the silence between us, I didn’t chase after him to apologize. Again, I feel a little bit regret on that now, but I think tomorrow everything will be fine again. Or else, I really got no idea what can I do to fix it!
Hope that tomorrow will be a warming sunny Sunday! Cheers for HOLIDAYS~!
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
WISH ME LUCK
I was so angry of myself just now. Tried so hard to install the ArchiCAD into my dear’s laptop (because I failed to install to my own laptop for several times), and started to do my CAD assignment. Then here came the trouble, I can hardly follow the tutorial handouts. The tutorial notes taught me how to set up, but never told me how to trim/cut-off unwanted parts. DAMN!!! Getting angrier and angrier while I was trying to figure out the tools from the software. He was out to his friend’s house, getting some movies from his friend. On the other hand, I was struggling so much in front of his laptop, trying to fix my stupid building with the unfamiliar software.
SHIT!!! This assignment costs me 10%, actually that shouldn’t be any big deal for me, but I was not confidence enough with other assignments of the same subject. So I can only choose to do my best and try to get the maximum score out of this 10% assignment. Another night without him staying awake by my side when I feel upset. I can’t really ask for more, trying hard to be more understanding, I have to stay quiet most of the time because he needs to work and I’m the one being so-called ‘FREE’ all the time. Can’t really sleep well recently, tried to relax myself a little bit, dragging myself out of the stress, still I failed.
Just like one of my classmate, I can feel the tension in her, through all her postings on PLURK. However, we are different. Different because she is a perfectionist, and I am just muddling along hoping for a PASS in subjects that I got lack confidence in. Going to be another sleepless night, if any day I can really get a fulltime 8 hours sleep, then that would definitely ONLY during holidays, and he will never know I always stay up during the night alone.
WISH ME LUCK FOR THIS SEMESTER!!! WISH ME LUCK FOR THE COMING SEMESTERS!!! ><
SHIT!!! This assignment costs me 10%, actually that shouldn’t be any big deal for me, but I was not confidence enough with other assignments of the same subject. So I can only choose to do my best and try to get the maximum score out of this 10% assignment. Another night without him staying awake by my side when I feel upset. I can’t really ask for more, trying hard to be more understanding, I have to stay quiet most of the time because he needs to work and I’m the one being so-called ‘FREE’ all the time. Can’t really sleep well recently, tried to relax myself a little bit, dragging myself out of the stress, still I failed.
Just like one of my classmate, I can feel the tension in her, through all her postings on PLURK. However, we are different. Different because she is a perfectionist, and I am just muddling along hoping for a PASS in subjects that I got lack confidence in. Going to be another sleepless night, if any day I can really get a fulltime 8 hours sleep, then that would definitely ONLY during holidays, and he will never know I always stay up during the night alone.
WISH ME LUCK FOR THIS SEMESTER!!! WISH ME LUCK FOR THE COMING SEMESTERS!!! ><
Saturday, November 14, 2009
誰可以當男朋友，誰只能當普通朋友
普通朋友：半夜會找妳打BBS聊天到很晚。
男/女朋友：半夜看妳還在BBS上會趕你下線(當然妳可以柪個幾分鐘)。
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普通朋友：他會找你出去玩,叫妳放棄報告或翹課。
男/女朋友：他會催妳快寫作業,或者想要跟你討論功課。
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普通朋友：在你生病時，會講好話關心妳。
男/女朋友：在你生病時，他會關心到你很煩，而且逼你去看醫生。
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普通朋友：他會盡量說好話來討好妳，妳會覺得他很棒。
男/女朋友：他所說的話，都是關心妳的！但通常像是在命令妳，妳會覺得他幹麻這麼做。
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普通朋友：他什麼事情都會配合著你，只要你高興。
男/女朋友：他會幫你辨別是非，但你會覺得他管太多。
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普通朋友：他會說他要給你最大的幸福。
男/女朋友：他只能給你保證，妳跟他在一起，他是最快樂的。
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普通朋友：他會幫你買消夜，送宵夜，載你上下課。
男/女朋友：他會幫你買宵夜，不過他會提醒你，吃什麼比較健康。
他會載你上下課，不過要他有順路，因為他不能為你而翹課。
因為他翹課，他成績便會不好，成績不好不會有好工作。
那你們將來日子怎麼會好過，他會想的很遠。
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普通朋友：他只有想到現在。
男/女朋友：他已經預見將來，該怎麼自我努力，好給你幸福。
男/女朋友：半夜看妳還在BBS上會趕你下線(當然妳可以柪個幾分鐘)。
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普通朋友：他會找你出去玩,叫妳放棄報告或翹課。
男/女朋友：他會催妳快寫作業,或者想要跟你討論功課。
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普通朋友：在你生病時，會講好話關心妳。
男/女朋友：在你生病時，他會關心到你很煩，而且逼你去看醫生。
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普通朋友：他會盡量說好話來討好妳，妳會覺得他很棒。
男/女朋友：他所說的話，都是關心妳的！但通常像是在命令妳，妳會覺得他幹麻這麼做。
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普通朋友：他什麼事情都會配合著你，只要你高興。
男/女朋友：他會幫你辨別是非，但你會覺得他管太多。
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普通朋友：他會說他要給你最大的幸福。
男/女朋友：他只能給你保證，妳跟他在一起，他是最快樂的。
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普通朋友：他會幫你買消夜，送宵夜，載你上下課。
男/女朋友：他會幫你買宵夜，不過他會提醒你，吃什麼比較健康。
他會載你上下課，不過要他有順路，因為他不能為你而翹課。
因為他翹課，他成績便會不好，成績不好不會有好工作。
那你們將來日子怎麼會好過，他會想的很遠。
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普通朋友：他只有想到現在。
男/女朋友：他已經預見將來，該怎麼自我努力，好給你幸福。
Friday, October 30, 2009
无奈
下个礼拜开始可以算是期末考之前的复习周期了吧？有考试的，相信都开始在埋头苦读了，没有考试的，应该都在赶期末功课了吧？我呢？我在干什么？真的没有什么心情要做功课，脑袋是空空的，想的莫过于快点回家，我真得不想读了！
这些日子来脑袋里想的都是我适不适合读这一科的问题，总是在拿起笔的那一瞬间，脑袋是空的，什么也想不了！每每在想放弃的那一刻，心里就会不断挣扎，叫我不能放弃，毕竟已经读了那么多年，为什么不能坚持到底？只要告诉自己已经尽力了，我想应该不会有人怪我了吧？
在国外一个人生活真得不好过，朋友明显少很多，知心的更没有几个，甚至一个都没有！学校里，每个人都很像在战场一样，竞争得你死我活，我讨厌这样的生活，所以我选择做好自己的本分，就足够。牵强微笑过着每一天，其实只是想让自己好过些，也让身边的人好过些，已经很久，没有过真正开怀大笑的感觉了。
人家说，有了爱的滋润，就是最好的心灵解药。这是当然的，爱带给每一个人的快乐都不同，可是，爱情里总少不了争吵，而那些压力往往比其它的压力都来得还要重，心还会痛上个几倍。那时候，所有的压力就会弄得我无法呼吸，在透不过气的时候，我的枕头就得受罪，湿了个一大半，除了心里舒服了些，其实并没有解决什么！
脑袋里还是在想着我的功课，决定了明天再做！真的很烦，很烦！每天见到他的时间就是我最放松的时间了！
PS：谢谢有你的陪伴！真的！
这些日子来脑袋里想的都是我适不适合读这一科的问题，总是在拿起笔的那一瞬间，脑袋是空的，什么也想不了！每每在想放弃的那一刻，心里就会不断挣扎，叫我不能放弃，毕竟已经读了那么多年，为什么不能坚持到底？只要告诉自己已经尽力了，我想应该不会有人怪我了吧？
在国外一个人生活真得不好过，朋友明显少很多，知心的更没有几个，甚至一个都没有！学校里，每个人都很像在战场一样，竞争得你死我活，我讨厌这样的生活，所以我选择做好自己的本分，就足够。牵强微笑过着每一天，其实只是想让自己好过些，也让身边的人好过些，已经很久，没有过真正开怀大笑的感觉了。
人家说，有了爱的滋润，就是最好的心灵解药。这是当然的，爱带给每一个人的快乐都不同，可是，爱情里总少不了争吵，而那些压力往往比其它的压力都来得还要重，心还会痛上个几倍。那时候，所有的压力就会弄得我无法呼吸，在透不过气的时候，我的枕头就得受罪，湿了个一大半，除了心里舒服了些，其实并没有解决什么！
脑袋里还是在想着我的功课，决定了明天再做！真的很烦，很烦！每天见到他的时间就是我最放松的时间了！
PS：谢谢有你的陪伴！真的！
Monday, October 26, 2009
WEEKENDS
Nothing much to do during last weekend. The most unforgettable part for sure was the sticker photo taking session. After having our brunch at home, we went to the city for a walk. He wanted to buy new shorts, tried for several of the pants and finally he decided to get the last one. Tried to distract myself a little bit from the shopping and concentrate on choosing suitable pants for him, I just don’t want to spend any of my expenses on shopping anymore, at least for this month. I really trying hard to control my expenses, yet I always have no idea on what I spend on, the money seems to be disappearing fast enough when I start to realize it. He seemed to be quite satisfied with his acquisition although it was considered quite expensive from my point of view.
Then, we went to Little Singapore for our late lunch. There was a part time job vacancy notice on the window outside of the shop. After memorizing the e-mail address for the job vacancy, we stepped in for our lunch. A little incident happened after the meal, he was almost fallen down the time we were going to leave the shop. He got really embarrassing and started to blame on my insensibility for leaving him behind without realizing the incident. Okay well, and I guessed the thought of having photo sticker with him is vanished. He decided to leave the city and went to Sunnybank for a haircut. I waited him for the haircut about one and a half hour. Then he drove us to the sticker photo shop to get our very first sticker photo. I was so overjoyed that time. He is so cute in those photos (Thanks for being so loving, my dear).
Went for a movie (Saw VI) after the photo taking, I didn’t really watch much during the movie because it was just too disgusting. The movie from my point of view is just about self-mutilation for the will of survive. What is so nice about self-mutilation? Getting parts of body chopped off or mutilated for survival? I really can’t understand.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
时光
最近在Facebook上无意间发现了一个小学同学上传的照片，顿时勾起了很多小时候的回忆！感觉真的很像最近才发生的事情，事实上却已经过了十年多了，时间过得真够快的！那张小学照片被上传不久，就已经有很多的旧同学在相片栏里留意见谈天说笑了，真的很谢谢某人把那么珍贵的照片再次放出来，把我们这些失去联系的旧同学们可以再次网路重逢！我真得觉得Facebook是一个很好的网页，总可以在上面遇到一些也许这辈子都很难再见的人！想了想，真的很想回到那无忧无虑的童年，做些笨笨的事，天真的没有烦恼，那该有多好？时光能倒流吗？
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
想太多
今天早上起来，头重重的，有点烫，看来又是生病了，很快的拿起手机发了通短讯告诉朋友我不去上课，吃了颗药，又继续睡觉！起来的时候已经是中午了，吃了点面包，喝了昨晚煮的人参茶，感觉好多了！几天下来都很累，总是不太精神的样子，看来应该是上个礼拜赶功课没有什么睡到的关系吧？还好明天没有课，可以在家里好好休息下！
一个人的时候，总会想很多，想到了我和他的点点滴滴。我们很少吵架，因为我不是很爱吵架的人。我总是觉得沟通会比较重要，吵架往往都不会解决问题！吵得最厉害的那一次，也是因为我无心的一句话，他闷了很久，忍不住气冲冲的到我房间来对我大声说话，把我给吓坏了！他很激动地责问我，我尽量控制自己的情绪，用很温和的语气和他说，他却越说越激动！当下的我真的吓傻了，忍了很久的泪水，终于不受控制的掉了下来，开始哭泣，没有办法再继续说些什么。他好像突然被电到那样，清醒了，不再用很重的语气和我说话，反而慢慢的移到我的身边抱着我，叫我不要哭！我推开他，我哭不是因为想要他的安慰，而是被他的举动给吓坏了。明明对我来说一点都没有意思的开玩笑，在他听起来却可以变得如此严重，我真得不明白，我们两个人的幽默定律可以差距那么大！那一次，我们都沉默了，沉默的互望了很久很久，自己不懂该和他说些什么，他很想和我说些什么，却往往话到嘴边又吞回去了，最后他抱着我说对不起，而我也向他道歉！
过后的日子，我们都没有什么吵架，他很迁就我，我也尽量包容他！他总是会想太多，觉得自己不够好，总是问我为什么会和他在一起，问一堆有的没的，我的答案永远只有一个，“爱一个人是不需要那么多的理由”，因为我自己也不知道为什么会和他在一起，明知道我和他的想法真的很不一样，却还是要在一起！而我却总是觉得自己做得不够多，很努力的在付出更多，希望他能够知道，我对他是真心的！
一个人的时候，总会想很多，想到了我和他的点点滴滴。我们很少吵架，因为我不是很爱吵架的人。我总是觉得沟通会比较重要，吵架往往都不会解决问题！吵得最厉害的那一次，也是因为我无心的一句话，他闷了很久，忍不住气冲冲的到我房间来对我大声说话，把我给吓坏了！他很激动地责问我，我尽量控制自己的情绪，用很温和的语气和他说，他却越说越激动！当下的我真的吓傻了，忍了很久的泪水，终于不受控制的掉了下来，开始哭泣，没有办法再继续说些什么。他好像突然被电到那样，清醒了，不再用很重的语气和我说话，反而慢慢的移到我的身边抱着我，叫我不要哭！我推开他，我哭不是因为想要他的安慰，而是被他的举动给吓坏了。明明对我来说一点都没有意思的开玩笑，在他听起来却可以变得如此严重，我真得不明白，我们两个人的幽默定律可以差距那么大！那一次，我们都沉默了，沉默的互望了很久很久，自己不懂该和他说些什么，他很想和我说些什么，却往往话到嘴边又吞回去了，最后他抱着我说对不起，而我也向他道歉！
过后的日子，我们都没有什么吵架，他很迁就我，我也尽量包容他！他总是会想太多，觉得自己不够好，总是问我为什么会和他在一起，问一堆有的没的，我的答案永远只有一个，“爱一个人是不需要那么多的理由”，因为我自己也不知道为什么会和他在一起，明知道我和他的想法真的很不一样，却还是要在一起！而我却总是觉得自己做得不够多，很努力的在付出更多，希望他能够知道，我对他是真心的！
Monday, October 12, 2009
DREAMWORLD
Went to DreamWorld last Saturday with him, it was a wonderful day. We reached there around 12pm after our brunch. It was a sunny & windy day. The ticket for whole day pass in DreamWorld (dry park) is $69, excluding WhiteWater (water park). I was so excited because that was the first time I went to DreamWorld. All the machineries are well decorated especially for the children’s part with cartoon ornaments all around the area.
PS: Want to thank my dear for the DreamWorld trip, I was really enjoying it and hope to have another trip with him real soon. Thanks, my dear!!!
Saturday, October 10, 2009
FINAL CRIT
Woke up around 9.30 this morning, after bath, I sat back in front of my laptop to plot out all the drawings I needed to be printed for my final critique later. Did a final observation on my structural model and another 3D model, I found out that part of my structural building was missing. OMG! I was almost flipped out that time because this model took me about one whole day to construct. Immediately I took out all the left over materials and having another half an hour to construct the missing part. After that, I had a simple breakfast with just cereal and milk. It was almost 12pm; I took a bus to school with well protection on my models, really not hoping to get any damage on the models which took me 3 days to finish.
Had the final critique session started around 2pm for the Design 4, it was really letting out a sigh of relief after I finished my presentation. The feedback was mostly about the lacking in sustainable elements on my design. The critics were concentrating more on the environmental friendly design and I really don’t put much attention on the sustainable elements on my design. The major issues about my design were – lack of sustainable elements & an unremarkable poor entrance. So I guessed I have to rethink more about the sustainable part for my design and a better welcoming entrance for the final submission portfolio.
Gastric! I got gastralgia the time I was presenting, around 4.30pm. That little bowl of cereal with milk can’t really prop me up for hours. Quickly right after my presentation, I unpinned all my drawings from the board, rushed myself to the bus stop for a bus home. Decided to reheat my leftover meal last night with microwave to resolve my growling stomach, I can’t live without microwave, how useful can it be!!! Waiting for him to come home, as a companion for him, we went out for dinner as I was still full. Actually was planning to have dessert after the meal, but I was just too tired in time, my eyes can hardly open.
We planned to have a trip tomorrow to Dream World. He decided to wake up at 8.30am, and I’m the one responsible as his alarm clock tomorrow so that we can head to Dream World earlier to enjoy our one-day trip. And I guess I really have to sleep now, or else I won’t be mettlesome enough for the trip!!! WooHoo~! Dream World, here I come~!
Had the final critique session started around 2pm for the Design 4, it was really letting out a sigh of relief after I finished my presentation. The feedback was mostly about the lacking in sustainable elements on my design. The critics were concentrating more on the environmental friendly design and I really don’t put much attention on the sustainable elements on my design. The major issues about my design were – lack of sustainable elements & an unremarkable poor entrance. So I guessed I have to rethink more about the sustainable part for my design and a better welcoming entrance for the final submission portfolio.
Gastric! I got gastralgia the time I was presenting, around 4.30pm. That little bowl of cereal with milk can’t really prop me up for hours. Quickly right after my presentation, I unpinned all my drawings from the board, rushed myself to the bus stop for a bus home. Decided to reheat my leftover meal last night with microwave to resolve my growling stomach, I can’t live without microwave, how useful can it be!!! Waiting for him to come home, as a companion for him, we went out for dinner as I was still full. Actually was planning to have dessert after the meal, but I was just too tired in time, my eyes can hardly open.
We planned to have a trip tomorrow to Dream World. He decided to wake up at 8.30am, and I’m the one responsible as his alarm clock tomorrow so that we can head to Dream World earlier to enjoy our one-day trip. And I guess I really have to sleep now, or else I won’t be mettlesome enough for the trip!!! WooHoo~! Dream World, here I come~!
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
BRIDGE WALK
Went for a walk at Kurilpa Bridge with him after dinner last night. It is a newly constructed pedestrian bridge on Brisbane River based on the principle of tensegrity. I was busy taking pictures all along the bridge and he seemed to be a bit bored. Not much pedestrians were using the bridge last night. There were only few couples enjoying their night at rest points provided along the bridge. The bridge was actually enhanced by using lighting effects. The colours of the light were changing every few seconds, but I can’t really tell the difference of the colours, everything was just blue to me.
I had nightmares all night long, about bugs, about assignments & about lecturers. I can’t really sleep well. Was awaken almost every hour by the nightmares I had, I’m so tired now. Going to concentrate on my model making again later, really hope that I can finish as fast as possible with a satisfying outcome. Sigh~! I’m really tired of all these. Hope to relax at least my mind for just a little while.
Monday, October 5, 2009
CONFUSION
I don’t really used to update my blog everyday, but I unusually started updating my blog quite often after my birthday one week ago. Maybe I was too touched by the birthday surprise he planned; I was really quite shocked about what he did. He doesn’t seem to be a romantic one, yet he really trying hard to be one, and be a better one just to make me happy. Undeniable, I’m really happy to be with him. When the days are getting longer, the feeling in me towards him is getting stronger. I want to note down everything happened between us, memorizing our dribs and drabs of being together.
I’m fear. Fear of losing him. Sometimes we argue, but most of the time I don’t even understand what were we arguing for. I am taking very serious in this relationship, feeling really different in him. It’s hard to describe, but I’m clear that I love him deeply. That day, he said something that was really heartrending. Maybe it’s my problem for being hot and cold sometimes. I can hardly understand my own either, sometimes being over reacting, emotional & sensitive toward things, I just can’t emotionally control myself. I just don’t know why!
I’m fear. Fear of losing him. Sometimes we argue, but most of the time I don’t even understand what were we arguing for. I am taking very serious in this relationship, feeling really different in him. It’s hard to describe, but I’m clear that I love him deeply. That day, he said something that was really heartrending. Maybe it’s my problem for being hot and cold sometimes. I can hardly understand my own either, sometimes being over reacting, emotional & sensitive toward things, I just can’t emotionally control myself. I just don’t know why!
Saturday, October 3, 2009
SO ACCURATE
I received this mail from one of my friends just now and I found it quite accurate on me. So i decided to repost the whole thing on my blog to share with everyone. Hope you enjoy it~!
Try to check your CHARACTER through your birthday~!!!
December 23rd ~ January 1st = Red
January 2nd ~ January 11th = Orange
January 12th ~ January 24th = Yellow
January 25th ~ February 3rd = Pink
February 4th ~ February 8th = Blue
February 9th ~ February 18th = Green
February 19th ~ February 28th = Brown
March 1st ~ March 10th = Aqua
March 11th ~ March 20th = Lime
March 21st = Black
March 22nd ~ March 31st = Purple
April 1st ~ April 10th = Navy
April 11th ~ April 20th = Silver
April 21st ~ April 30th = White
May 1st ~ May 14th = Blue
May 15th ~ May 24th = Gold
May 25th ~ June 3rd= Cream
June 4th ~ June 13th = Grey
June 14th ~ June 23rd = Maroon
June 24th = Grey
June 25th ~ July 4th = Red
July 5th ~ July 14th = Orange
July 15th ~ July 25th = Yellow
July 26th ~ August 4th = Pink
August 5th ~ August 13th = Blue
August 14th ~ August 23rd = Green
August 24th ~ September 2nd = Brown
September 3rd ~ September 12th = Yellow
September 13th ~ September 22nd = Lime
September 23rd = Olive
September 24th ~October 3rd = Purple
October 4th ~ October 13th = Navy
October 14th ~ October 23rd = Silver
October 24th ~November 11th = White
November 12th ~ November 21st = Gold
November 22nd ~ December 1st = Cream
December 2nd ~ December 11th = Grey
December 12th~ December 21st = Maroon
December 22nd = Teal
And your result is :
Red - Cute and lovable type, You are picky but always in love... and liked to be loved. Fresh and cheerful, but can be "moody" at times. Capable with people nice, soft, and that can love you for the way you are. Likes people that are easy to talk to, and can make you feel comfortable.
Orange - You know how to treat people.You always have goals to reach and you really work hard to get there, you are competitive. Your friends are really important to you and you appreciate what you have, you sometimes over react that's because you are sensitive.
Yellow - Your feelings change suddenly and easily. You are sweet and innocent. Trusted by many people, and have a strong leadership towards relationships. You never hide your feelings, and express every thing. You make good decision and make the right choice at the right time. And always dreaming of Romantic Relationship.
Blue - You may have low self-esteem, and can be very picky. You are artistic and like to fall in love, but you let your love pass by, by loving with your mind, not your heart.
Pink - You are always trying your best in everything, and like to help and care for other people. But you are not easily satisfied. You have negative thoughts, and you look for romantic love like in a fairytale. relationship.
Green - You get along well with new people. You are not really a shy person, but sometimes you can hurt people's feelings by your words... You like to be loved and noticed by your lover, but mostly you are single, waiting for the right person.
Brown - You are active and sportive. It's hard for other people to become close with you, but you fall in love easily. But once you find out you can't get something, you give up and let go easily as well.
Aqua - You are always lonely, and like traveling. You are truthful, but listen and believe other people too easily.You are responsible for your own actions.You choose love carefully, and don't fall in love easily. It's hard to find love for you, but once you find the right lover, you trust them forever.
Lime - You are calm, but easily stressed out. You get jealous easily, and complain over little things. You can't get stuck into one thing, but you have a capable personality for everyone to trust you and like you.
Black - You are challenging, and have the "guts". But you don't like changes in your life. And once you make a decision, you keep it that way for a long time. Your love life is also challenging, and different.
Purple - You are Mysterious, never selfish and get interested in things easily. Your day can be Sad or Happy depending on your mood. You are popular between friends but you can act stupid at times, and forget things easily. You go for a person that's trustworthy.
Navy - You are attractive, and love your life. You have a strong feeling towards everything. And very easily distracted. Once you get angry at someone, its hard for you to forgive them.
Olive - You are warm and light hearted. You seem to flow well with friends and family. You don't like Violence and know what's right.You are Kind and cheerful but don't evny other people.
Silver - You are imaginative and fun, You love trying new things. You like to challenge yourself and you learn things easily, you're easy to talk to and give good advice. When comes to friendship, you find it hard to trust someone.
Gold - You know what's right and what's wrong. You are cheerful and out going. It's hard for you to find the one you want.
Cream - Competitive and sportive. Don't like losing and always cheerful! You are trustworthy, and very out going. But once you find the right one, you don't let go or a long time.
Grey - You are attractive, and active. You want to be noticed, and don't like to be treated unequally. You can brighten up peoples day. You know what to say at the right time, and you have a good sense of humor.
Maroon - You are intelligent, and know what's right. You like to make things go your way, which can sometimes cause trouble for not thinking about other people's feelings. But you be patient when it comes to love. Once you get a hold of the right person, it's hard for you to find a better love.
White - You are shiny person,cute and intelligent Person. You like to make friendship with your higher persons, which can sometimes cause trouble. Your Strength is Your Love towards friends.You always looks to love somebody and you be loved by somebody. Your Intelligency may lead to success in your life.
Friday, October 2, 2009
STRESS
Had some progression improvement for my design assignments, planned to finish up a 3D drawing so that I can get 4 elevations and 2 sections directly from the 3D drawing. However, I found it quite difficult to edit the contour and level for my 3D model as I’m not that proficient with the 3D function in AutoCAD. I tried my best to finish up the ground level so that the other levels will be much easier to continue with. Yet the finishing part for the windows and doors will be very troublesome. I really prayed that I can finish everything in time for the final crit next Thursday.
He messaged me this afternoon asking me whether to have a Gold Coast trip this weekend, but I don’t really think that I can make it since I got lot more assignment to do. Telling him that I’ll try my best to finish as much work as possible so that we can go for the trip, but deep inside I knew that it’s an impossible mission for me to fulfill. Working in front of the laptop screen for the whole afternoon, without leaving my room for a second, I was quite tired. My eyes were hurting badly. Tried to relax myself a bit, I decided to go to the city and come home with him together after his work off.
Got his replied message informing that he might be working late, I had already in the bus heading to city. Too late! I guessed I would just wander around the city and waited for him to finish his work. It was actually killing me with my high heels on, so I headed to Starbucks for a hot white chocolate mocha while waiting for him to finish his work. I enjoyed my drink until the shop was actually going to shut up. Left the shop and leaned against a column in front of the entrance of his office building, he told me he was finishing in another 10 minutes.
Took out my camera and started to play around with it, shooting the views around me, other than high-rise buildings, vehicles & pedestrians, there was not much to look at.
(views around his workplace)
Listening to the songs with my iPhone, he appeared beside me after 25 minutes. Was a bit angry with that, but I can’t really angry with him because he got no choice for his work load, and he was supposed to stay longer for his work if I hadn’t come to the city for him. This caused him to be forced waking up earlier tomorrow for his work again, feeling so sorry for that.
Tired, really tiring. Stress, really stressful. Why can’t I be a little bit harder?
(Pray for my assignments, pray for my models, pray for my final crit, pray for a smooth semester)
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