WORRIES

Having weird dreams for sometimes since the holiday starts! Dreams about failing for the courses, dreams about bugs, dreams about family and friends, all sorts of weird dreams I have never had before. Everytime I have these kind of weird dreams; I will definitely share with him. He will just look at me and say “Why are you so weird?”, petting my head and ask me not to worry so much, not to think too much. I guess I’m really being kind of weird recently; is it because I’m too tense on myself?

It is really happy that the holiday has finally started and all the assignments have come to an end. However, I start to worry about the results! Yes! The result! I got no confident at all for my result this semester! Everything seems to be so blur and confusing. Is it because I have got out of track for almost 1 year from this architecture stuff? I tried so hard through the semester to be more creative and innovative in design, yet my brain always went blank. There’s nothing else I can do now. Being regret is useless at this point. The only thing I can do now is to wait. Wait for the stupid f**king results! If I fail, I can only blame on myself to be not trying hard enough, if I’m so lucky to pass, then really thank GOD for everything!

AGAIN, GOOD LUCK FOR ME TO GET AT LEAST A PASS FOR ALL MY SUBJECTS~!!! PLZ!!!

BORING

The third day of holiday since the last assignment had been passed up? Bored! Really bored! Nothing much can do. Busy thinking and planning of what to get him for Christmas gift. Had an idea in my mind weeks ago. Seriously don’t know whether he will like the gift I’m going to present, but I decided to give it a try, at least, that gift means a lot to me, hope it will be the same for him.

Decision made, I bought all the ‘ingredients’ needed, and get started on my ‘plan’. So long so far, the ‘outcome’ is quite satisfying since it’s the first time I do something like that, I don’t really expect much. I spent two nights on my ‘plan’, slept around 4am almost everyday. Not to say that I need that long period of time to get my ‘plan’ done. It’s just the problem that I can’t really fall asleep early.

This morning, a long-looking-forward-to SATURDAY! Woke up the time he entered my room. Still I was too tired to get out from my bed. He requested me to on my laptop so that he can have his manga surfing while I continued my sweet dream. Woke up exactly 12 in the afternoon, going to prepare a very simple ‘Indo-Mee’ breakfast for him as he requested whilst I had tuna sandwich with cheese! My fav cheese!

Went for ice-cream session in the city around 4pm, walk around South Bank, and then get home. It was really a hot sunny day. Can’t really imagine how HOT it will be during summer! He prepared mince meat spaghetti for dinner. It was undeniable awesome. His cooking skill is way on top of me. Oh gosh! Feeling so embarrassing being a girl with bad cooking skill. Not that I can’t cook, it’s just that my food won’t be as tasty as his!

Got a little argument just now about something really minor, it was my fault, I knew it, being emotional. He went back to his room after the silence between us, I didn’t chase after him to apologize. Again, I feel a little bit regret on that now, but I think tomorrow everything will be fine again. Or else, I really got no idea what can I do to fix it!

Hope that tomorrow will be a warming sunny Sunday! Cheers for HOLIDAYS~!

WISH ME LUCK

I was so angry of myself just now. Tried so hard to install the ArchiCAD into my dear’s laptop (because I failed to install to my own laptop for several times), and started to do my CAD assignment. Then here came the trouble, I can hardly follow the tutorial handouts. The tutorial notes taught me how to set up, but never told me how to trim/cut-off unwanted parts. DAMN!!! Getting angrier and angrier while I was trying to figure out the tools from the software. He was out to his friend’s house, getting some movies from his friend. On the other hand, I was struggling so much in front of his laptop, trying to fix my stupid building with the unfamiliar software.

SHIT!!! This assignment costs me 10%, actually that shouldn’t be any big deal for me, but I was not confidence enough with other assignments of the same subject. So I can only choose to do my best and try to get the maximum score out of this 10% assignment. Another night without him staying awake by my side when I feel upset. I can’t really ask for more, trying hard to be more understanding, I have to stay quiet most of the time because he needs to work and I’m the one being so-called ‘FREE’ all the time. Can’t really sleep well recently, tried to relax myself a little bit, dragging myself out of the stress, still I failed.

Just like one of my classmate, I can feel the tension in her, through all her postings on PLURK. However, we are different. Different because she is a perfectionist, and I am just muddling along hoping for a PASS in subjects that I got lack confidence in. Going to be another sleepless night, if any day I can really get a fulltime 8 hours sleep, then that would definitely ONLY during holidays, and he will never know I always stay up during the night alone.

WISH ME LUCK FOR THIS SEMESTER!!! WISH ME LUCK FOR THE COMING SEMESTERS!!! ><

誰可以當男朋友，誰只能當普通朋友

普通朋友：半夜會找妳打BBS聊天到很晚。
男/女朋友：半夜看妳還在BBS上會趕你下線(當然妳可以柪個幾分鐘)。
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普通朋友：他會找你出去玩,叫妳放棄報告或翹課。
男/女朋友：他會催妳快寫作業,或者想要跟你討論功課。
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普通朋友：在你生病時，會講好話關心妳。
男/女朋友：在你生病時，他會關心到你很煩，而且逼你去看醫生。
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普通朋友：他會盡量說好話來討好妳，妳會覺得他很棒。
男/女朋友：他所說的話，都是關心妳的！但通常像是在命令妳，妳會覺得他幹麻這麼做。
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普通朋友：他什麼事情都會配合著你，只要你高興。
男/女朋友：他會幫你辨別是非，但你會覺得他管太多。
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普通朋友：他會說他要給你最大的幸福。
男/女朋友：他只能給你保證，妳跟他在一起，他是最快樂的。
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普通朋友：他會幫你買消夜，送宵夜，載你上下課。
男/女朋友：他會幫你買宵夜，不過他會提醒你，吃什麼比較健康。
他會載你上下課，不過要他有順路，因為他不能為你而翹課。
因為他翹課，他成績便會不好，成績不好不會有好工作。
那你們將來日子怎麼會好過，他會想的很遠。
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普通朋友：他只有想到現在。
男/女朋友：他已經預見將來，該怎麼自我努力，好給你幸福。