无奈

下个礼拜开始可以算是期末考之前的复习周期了吧？有考试的，相信都开始在埋头苦读了，没有考试的，应该都在赶期末功课了吧？我呢？我在干什么？真的没有什么心情要做功课，脑袋是空空的，想的莫过于快点回家，我真得不想读了！

这些日子来脑袋里想的都是我适不适合读这一科的问题，总是在拿起笔的那一瞬间，脑袋是空的，什么也想不了！每每在想放弃的那一刻，心里就会不断挣扎，叫我不能放弃，毕竟已经读了那么多年，为什么不能坚持到底？只要告诉自己已经尽力了，我想应该不会有人怪我了吧？

在国外一个人生活真得不好过，朋友明显少很多，知心的更没有几个，甚至一个都没有！学校里，每个人都很像在战场一样，竞争得你死我活，我讨厌这样的生活，所以我选择做好自己的本分，就足够。牵强微笑过着每一天，其实只是想让自己好过些，也让身边的人好过些，已经很久，没有过真正开怀大笑的感觉了。

人家说，有了爱的滋润，就是最好的心灵解药。这是当然的，爱带给每一个人的快乐都不同，可是，爱情里总少不了争吵，而那些压力往往比其它的压力都来得还要重，心还会痛上个几倍。那时候，所有的压力就会弄得我无法呼吸，在透不过气的时候，我的枕头就得受罪，湿了个一大半，除了心里舒服了些，其实并没有解决什么！

脑袋里还是在想着我的功课，决定了明天再做！真的很烦，很烦！每天见到他的时间就是我最放松的时间了！

PS：谢谢有你的陪伴！真的！

WEEKENDS

Nothing much to do during last weekend. The most unforgettable part for sure was the sticker photo taking session. After having our brunch at home, we went to the city for a walk. He wanted to buy new shorts, tried for several of the pants and finally he decided to get the last one. Tried to distract myself a little bit from the shopping and concentrate on choosing suitable pants for him, I just don’t want to spend any of my expenses on shopping anymore, at least for this month. I really trying hard to control my expenses, yet I always have no idea on what I spend on, the money seems to be disappearing fast enough when I start to realize it. He seemed to be quite satisfied with his acquisition although it was considered quite expensive from my point of view.

Then, we went to Little Singapore for our late lunch. There was a part time job vacancy notice on the window outside of the shop. After memorizing the e-mail address for the job vacancy, we stepped in for our lunch. A little incident happened after the meal, he was almost fallen down the time we were going to leave the shop. He got really embarrassing and started to blame on my insensibility for leaving him behind without realizing the incident. Okay well, and I guessed the thought of having photo sticker with him is vanished. He decided to leave the city and went to Sunnybank for a haircut. I waited him for the haircut about one and a half hour. Then he drove us to the sticker photo shop to get our very first sticker photo. I was so overjoyed that time. He is so cute in those photos (Thanks for being so loving, my dear).

Went for a movie (Saw VI) after the photo taking, I didn’t really watch much during the movie because it was just too disgusting. The movie from my point of view is just about self-mutilation for the will of survive. What is so nice about self-mutilation? Getting parts of body chopped off or mutilated for survival? I really can’t understand.

时光

最近在Facebook上无意间发现了一个小学同学上传的照片，顿时勾起了很多小时候的回忆！感觉真的很像最近才发生的事情，事实上却已经过了十年多了，时间过得真够快的！那张小学照片被上传不久，就已经有很多的旧同学在相片栏里留意见谈天说笑了，真的很谢谢某人把那么珍贵的照片再次放出来，把我们这些失去联系的旧同学们可以再次网路重逢！我真得觉得Facebook是一个很好的网页，总可以在上面遇到一些也许这辈子都很难再见的人！想了想，真的很想回到那无忧无虑的童年，做些笨笨的事，天真的没有烦恼，那该有多好？时光能倒流吗？

想太多

今天早上起来，头重重的，有点烫，看来又是生病了，很快的拿起手机发了通短讯告诉朋友我不去上课，吃了颗药，又继续睡觉！起来的时候已经是中午了，吃了点面包，喝了昨晚煮的人参茶，感觉好多了！几天下来都很累，总是不太精神的样子，看来应该是上个礼拜赶功课没有什么睡到的关系吧？还好明天没有课，可以在家里好好休息下！

一个人的时候，总会想很多，想到了我和他的点点滴滴。我们很少吵架，因为我不是很爱吵架的人。我总是觉得沟通会比较重要，吵架往往都不会解决问题！吵得最厉害的那一次，也是因为我无心的一句话，他闷了很久，忍不住气冲冲的到我房间来对我大声说话，把我给吓坏了！他很激动地责问我，我尽量控制自己的情绪，用很温和的语气和他说，他却越说越激动！当下的我真的吓傻了，忍了很久的泪水，终于不受控制的掉了下来，开始哭泣，没有办法再继续说些什么。他好像突然被电到那样，清醒了，不再用很重的语气和我说话，反而慢慢的移到我的身边抱着我，叫我不要哭！我推开他，我哭不是因为想要他的安慰，而是被他的举动给吓坏了。明明对我来说一点都没有意思的开玩笑，在他听起来却可以变得如此严重，我真得不明白，我们两个人的幽默定律可以差距那么大！那一次，我们都沉默了，沉默的互望了很久很久，自己不懂该和他说些什么，他很想和我说些什么，却往往话到嘴边又吞回去了，最后他抱着我说对不起，而我也向他道歉！

过后的日子，我们都没有什么吵架，他很迁就我，我也尽量包容他！他总是会想太多，觉得自己不够好，总是问我为什么会和他在一起，问一堆有的没的，我的答案永远只有一个，“爱一个人是不需要那么多的理由”，因为我自己也不知道为什么会和他在一起，明知道我和他的想法真的很不一样，却还是要在一起！而我却总是觉得自己做得不够多，很努力的在付出更多，希望他能够知道，我对他是真心的！

DREAMWORLD

Went to DreamWorld last Saturday with him, it was a wonderful day. We reached there around 12pm after our brunch. It was a sunny & windy day. The ticket for whole day pass in DreamWorld (dry park) is $69, excluding WhiteWater (water park). I was so excited because that was the first time I went to DreamWorld. All the machineries are well decorated especially for the children’s part with cartoon ornaments all around the area.

I really enjoyed the colourful design of the place, everything looked attracting to me. We started our walk with something more static, not much action and peaceful, that’s the wildlife experience. Walked around and looked around all the wildlife, what attracted me the most is the Bilby. It is an endangered small tiny creature looked like rabbit/rat with a long tail. It was really cute. Another creature which really drew my attention was the Wombat. It is a pig-look animal and extremely cute too. After the wildlife walk, we went for something dynamic.

Went for rides on most of the machineries and I yelled hysterically. Got a little bit dizzy after the second ride and I guessed it was time for me to rest. Rushed to the wildlife area for the wildlife presentation show at 2.30pm, the show was about information of the wildlife of Australia. They presented the snake, owl and Bilby. After that, we had a chance for a closer look at Bilby. It is awesomely cute. We headed back to the Tower of Terror, a high-speed machinery, with just 30 seconds course of event. Before that, we passed by the tiger presentation show and stopped by for awhile to look at the tiger performance.

He kept persuading me for the ride of the roller coaster, but I really didn’t want to have a try on that because of some bad past experience and I am trying hard to put the past behind. He looked very disappointed on that, yet I really felt sorry to him. We left DreamWorld around 4 something, he suggested for a drive to Gold Coast. However, we didn’t stay long in Gold Coast because he felt very tired. Rushing home and he fell asleep in no time. Had our late dinner at around 11.30pm, I was exhausted and had a heavy sleep right after the dinner.

PS: Want to thank my dear for the DreamWorld trip, I was really enjoying it and hope to have another trip with him real soon. Thanks, my dear!!!